about blogging

you know suddenly i realise there are so many things we can blog about; from the things we do everyday, reviews of food, movies and music we hear, an experience, to our thoughts and views over certain issues. so many, and suddenly i felt quite wasted for not blogging more when i was in melbourne, at least i would remember the little things i would otherwise forget if i had noted them down here. (you got me there kel!)

/sidenote kelsey told me my post lack alot of punctuations, esp commas, hence causing my readers to have to disect the long sentences themselves, haha. this is making me so conscious about my commas now when im typing this post.

and the same applies to my hols too! i should blog more conscientiously so i can come back and reminisce after the busy school term starts or when i miss my friends and singapore.

i was just looking at the new album nat posted on facebook, you know the photos we took when we sent her off at the airport. after those airport photos, she actually also took photos of the cabin's food, the movie/show she watched on the plane, game she played and some zi pai photos on the plane. and after seeing all of that, i was very inspired to do one post on my journey back to melbourne. i could see her excitement behind those photos about her exchange, and about her life that lies ahead. and it was actually sort of interesting to see what she's been up to on the plane. (or maybe i was just being kaypo haha!)

maybe for me, the excitement about starting a new life overseas had faded, and all those journeys to and fro melbourne and home had made me sort of numb to a flight journey. but i guess it would be quite interesting to share a what-would-have-been boring flight journey if i make a conscious attempt to share everything i do on the plane. haha okay peeps lookout for my flight journey post on hmm, quickest 27th Feb, if not 28th. oh and i'll be taking Airbus 380! can then share how it looks like from within through photos. :)

oh and i think i haven told anyone, im leaving on the night of 26th Feb! i have about one more month left.

bon voyage nat

receive a call first thing morning, erms noon (haha) after i wake up but still rotting on the bed, it was from kelsey. she offered to deliver pontian wonton mee to my house, which of course i gladly accepted the offer since i already had plans to eat that for lunch; thanks to who recently kept eating that noodles big bowl somemore (so greedy) drive up my cravings for it too.

but after eating it for the i think 1000th time since i came back, i've decided its about time to stop for awhile haha. but im sure im gonna miss it badly in melbourne. okay so the plan is to gorge myself with that wonton mee everyday till im like super super super sick so i won't have cravings for the next 9 months when im away. set!




and we sang and recorded officially missing you for the whole afternoon haha too free and crazy i know. but it was so much fun! and funny to hear our voices being recorded.

"all i hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop, oooh baby tell me why'd you have to go, cuz this pain i feel it won't go away, and today~ im officially missing you..."


and then went to send natty poo off to Denmark, Copenhagen tonight but before that, met up with leesi to finish up our photo scrapbook for her. it was so nice lah, feel like taking a photo of every page haha. but this kinda scrapbook and artsy stuff never fail to point out to me how horrendous my art skills are, seriously. ahh shit forgot to take a photo of the last page where i proudly contributed an SIA aeroplane hahaha.









she should be on the plane by now, have a safe flight and all the best for the exchange natty poo! seeya end of the year i suppose.


ps. im determined to keep my blog alive and kicking. :)

photo scrapbook

err hmm! here to clear the dust. heehee.

just saw something on facebook that made my blood boil. this post wasnt suppose to be on this, but just to let some steam off...

seriously singaporeans should stop being so mean, proud and racist, and stop discriminating new foreign immigrants in singapore! its just like how you don't like to feel unrespected and discriminated against in a foreign country, please dun do something you won't like people to do on you! and stop thinking singapore is soley owned by singaporeans for we don't own this place, we live here and this is our home, but that doesnt mean non-singaporeans cant stay here! and with globalisation i dun see how we can, and afford to shut 'foreigners' out of singapore. furthermore given that we're a migrant society, all of us are essentially immigrants, its just a matter of who arrives and stay here first. maybe our ancestors had arrived earlier and the new immigrants later, so what? please dont act like a friggin babarian and start drawing boundaries on who own the place and who doesnt. seriously! time to move forward.

and it always feels better to be on the giving end and have someone back you up, but wait till you leave singapore and start receiving all these shit from real foreigners; where in their eyes you are them, the intruders, then maybe you'll reconsider about being so mean and racist towards the 'foreigners' in singapore. and then you'd better stop complaining about how others are racist and mean towards you, because you deserve it.


okayy steam let-off-ed. back to my original post, hope nat doesnt read this till she's in denmark because this is meant to be a surprise haha. met up with lee si tonight to make a photo scrapbook for nat as a farewell gift, and this photo scrapbook shall accompany natty nat through any cold and lonely nights she might have over in copenhagen. :) some warmth from singapore haha.

i was sorting the photos yesterday and it took one whole afternoon! cheungmarl. but it also gave me a chance to sort out my own photos to bring back to melbourne. been wanting to develop photos for melbourne since i think 2000 years ago, and finally i did it yesterday! :) so proud of myself haha. cant wait to decorate my new room with all these nice photos.

and while sorting the photos, i realised i have a preference for photos that capture genuine emotions and photos that have very good feel, haha like ferlin pointed out, i like photos that transmit a very warm and together-ness feeling. i might not look my best in some photos, (for example laugh or smile till very over or smile until i cant see my eyes, which happen to happen alot of times haha) but i still like those photos very much. at least they're genuine. :)

neways sending nat off tmr night but before that, horribleee have to finish up the photo scrapbook before the flight carrying natty nat flies off. haha. will take a photo of the beautiful scrapbook tmr.

ciaos!

november post

its been so long my dear old and dusty bloggie. *take a look at my previous post haha val's 21st. oh and the picnic happened. like 2 months ago. and spring came and went away. how fast.

okay recent events first had my first paper - finance today, on the first official day of examinations how good and bad is that. gosh it feels like yesterday when i was just sitting here typing about marketing last sem. how i sacrificed my left hand battling with time. haha. and compared to that today's paper was like a breeze, totally no need to write so much so fast and so vigorously.

and the weather just makes me feel like GOING HOME RIGHT AWAY. seriously the aussie sun is life-threatening. even though singapore's bad, summer here is worst! just a few hours out there and im like a roasted pig now. red arms red face black feet. not to exaggerate, but i thought i smelt human flesh just now under the sun outside the exam hall. its not sweaty smell, body odour smell or perfume or whatever, its the smell of human flesh under extreme heat. at least that's what i thought it was. haha. and today's the first time i sweated so profusely during an exam (no aircon!). horrible I WANA GO HOME NOW. haha.

NEXT taking jap made me realise the difficulty of learning a whole new language from scratch. i think in a lot of ways we took our ability to speak and write in two languages too lightly, its been like so taken for granted that we underestimate the difficulty of learning another language (hence the arrogant and put-down attitude towards people struggling with english or chinese). im suddenly so thankful that we're being exposed to both languages from young!

and funny thing is i only really understood what a verb, adjective, noun, adverb and other grammatical forms is until i took jap. hmmmm, i wonder how i passed my english in primary school without knowing all of that. haha. anyways as much as my sensei (teacher, which i always accidentally call sinseh when i first took jap haha) says jap is the easiest language to learn, still, not that easy given the intensity and time pressure to master all of that. sadly to say i will have to stop taking japanese from next sem onwards because its taking up much more time than my 'real' commerce subjects. all in all despite the occasional complains and grumblings about jap, it has still been an enjoyable experience learning another language and im glad i took it because.. next time i can tell people proudly 'hey i know 2 and a half languages!'

examination dates are 9, 11, 13 and 16th and im coming home on the 21st. kinda happy with my exam timetable this semester since it ends so early. heee. and just a quick update to fill in the large gap between my previous and current post. been busy that period with school work, hell lot of assignments and understanding of new topics. i think year 2 of uni is really, possibly the most hectic year out of the 3 years. shall see if its true at the end of my uni life. and other than school work, managed to visit tasmania during my spring break for 3 days and it was a good getaway! ate lotsa good stuff and stayed in this really interesting themed-cottage on the first night. photos no photos since my camera died on me on the first day. and last week of spring break was filled by my family visiting.

NEXT VERY IMPORTANT PIECE OF NEWS

I AM SHIFTING! had a really really really hard time looking for apartment for the past what one and a half months? really is it so much to ask for to just want a 2 bedroom apartment with 2 decent bedrooms with proper wardrobe, proper door, proper windows and proper walls? because here's what, first we found an apartment with one bedroom without windows, hence only four walls and a door. next we found another one with a bedroom without windows and wardrobe. next one without door. yes without door can you call it a bedroom? next one with only 3 walls. really on the verge of exasperation when we finally got our current apartment last friday during our study break. and its really good stuff that apartment. love it so much. ;)

so we're gonna slowly shift our stuff in and shop for a few pieces of furniture next week after our last paper on the 16th. oh we meaning my future housemate and i heee.


okayy! there! all that i have to say. very concise already okay dun complain im too wordy again haha. good luck for the remaining papers to me! and im really LOOKING FORWARD TO RETURNING HOME! MY EVER ATTRACTIVE SUNNY ISLAND :D


ps. just a sudden thought, we should really treasure this prime time of our lives! do whatever we want to now and now and dun waste it. we are 20! young independent energised, not old enough to lose our passion, not young enough to feel restricted. so make the most out of it now because i can forsee we are gonna say 50 years later that we want to come back to this point of our life. at least for me i might say that heee. sooo LET'S LIVE IT!

21st

i am so tired now i think i'll fall asleep once i hit the bed.

went for val's 21st birthday dinner and party tonight and it was so awesome!! haha had lotsa fun tonight :)) and hope val enjoyed her day too. HAPPY 21ST! oh and this is the first 21st birthday celebration i've been to so far. and the thought that im gonna miss so many awesome parties, celebrations and birthday dinners next year make me feel damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn sian! how many 21st can we have in our life? :((((

was looking at the photo board thing they did for val just now and was so shocked to realise how much one year can do to everyone. haha. brought me back to like one year ago (which felt like soooo long) at this exact same month same day. oh my gosh, things are definitely so much better now. we all looked so horrible then! like so cui and neng and inexperienced and everything. hahaha. i wonder what i'll say one year later at this exact same month same day. ;)

oh my gosh next thing i wana say is, I LOVE GOOD FOOD! :)))) having good food can so lift one's spirits and recharge our exhausted body and mind after a week of work. so i really feel good and excited about the continuous good food hunt we're having now!! heeeheee but the thing is we only have so many free weekends and so much more good restaurants out there waiting for us to try. omg i cant wait to try the korean on little bourke! but before that, lets try vietnamnese(?) this sunday first. :)))))


the best thing about semester 2 is you'll wake up everyday feeling better about today, because everyday brings you closer to longer and warmer sun-lit days, and to my favourite season of the year - spring! colourful flowers blossoming, healthy green leaves growing back onto balding trees and basically brings life back into the gloomy city. best of all spring clothes are the nicest too! very colourful with lotsa floral prints (geok is gonna call me ah huay again haha), and all the spring clothes seem to be in pastel colours too (i lovvvve pastel colour clothes). omg i really do love spring!

i am waiting... for the best season of the year, and then it'll be picnic time at the pretty botanic garden. :)

eat gorge indulge

im feeling so happy now i duno where that came from :)))

and i realise i've desserted my dear old bloggie for too long, other than the random sociology essay, i realise i haven been blogging anything close to my life. :)

life's good but dear old school's no good. why is it always so difficult to strike a balance between work and play. i've been so so so so so so slack this semester. feeling slacky towards everything. i haven been studying hard enough (and i think im lagging in finance, jap and ob, which is 3 out of 4 subjects im doing!), i haven been cooking for 2 weeks now, i haven been doing laundry and im procrastinating everything. such a horrible girl.

outside of school, life's been pretty good! (ding!:D) see i told you im feeling happy now hees. just survived the first wave of assignments in week 3 and 4 and have been going out alot these few weeks. was just back from michelle's place and she practically whipped up a feast tonight! like from dinner to dessert to cupcakes. :)

main point is that i've been eating so much every consecutive night (till my stomach's like a big round full pumped beach ball) that suddenly yesterday after dinner i asked myself, why am i doing this to myself? why am i gorging myself with so much food every night till i feel so damn full? what was that for? i am too greedy to eat till so full. so i've decided, that from now on i should stop being greedy and stop overindulging. that could lead to disgestive and constipation problems yea. haha.

and because of this korean show i've watched, 'the world they lived' or something like that, im totally hundred percent into korean now!!! the food, the language, the people, absolutely everything! maybe i haven stressed enough, to illustrate the impact, hmm i have been to have korean for 3 nights in a week. :) and im so sensitive to koreans now i can detect them as soon as they open their mouth to speak and i'll be so excited haha. and whenever i answer my phone i'll go like 'yopseyo!', or if i get the chance i'll use the limited korean that i know of. crazy ass i know. hahaha.

aigooo~ stop playing yumin.

(:D :P)

connection

i was just thinking why is it getting harder to connect with people these days as we grow older. i dun mean im having a problem connecting with people now, just that i see it as harder than before. why? dim gai?

mm, i would assert a big portion of the reason to because we are growing older. yea like angeline said as we grow older, the time we are able to spend with our friends also shortens, say like your primary school friends, from the time you met and knew them to now - about 10 years and counting, secondary school friends, about 6 years and counting, jc friends, about 3 years and counting, uni friends, about 1 year and counting. going by this theory you are suppose to be closest to primary school friends? but this isnt the case for most people. why? dim gai?

perhaps this might be because the secondary school period is the purest and most significant part of forming who we are now i think. the people we meet, the way we interact with one another, the norms and culture formed then teaches us how to deal with social situations we've never set ourselves in before secondary school (since who can we meet other than our families before secondary school). and we sort of formed our first line of frequency with our secondary school friends, sort of influenced each other to believe in a set of values and form attitudes towards different issues and people. this i would call the growing up phase. like we were all growing up in a similar environment with our secondary school friends.

then we go on to junior college, these values and attitudes might change a little as we meet new people, we learn how to deal with different social situations as we set ourselves in different ones, and we form a different but similar line of frequency with new people we meet in there. and maybe through groups like CCA or class, because of a common identity and meeting each other almost everyday, the friendship forged might still be rather strong. this i would call the stabilising phase.

and then off to uni we start to meet people from all over we never knew existed. like all kinds of people (personality wise). from here onwards, we've already had a set of values and attitude towards issues and different social situations. we've sort of been polluted, become more complicated. we stereotype people base on our own values and beliefs. we judge people on their actions and things they talk about. we choose people to befriend with, people whom you think share common values and frequencies as you. because of values, attitudes and actions you disagree with or dislike, you might just dismiss this person who could possibly be a genuine and potential friend. as this process takes place, in a way we are finding it hard to connect with people.

because essentially we've lost our pureness in befriending people. we select people to befriend with instead of simply befriending people, we have our reservations about people and compare them wtih friends we are comfortable with like secondary school and jc friends. which i wana say is unfair because sec sch friends have gone through so much with you, like the entire growing up phase, of course you will have many common values, frequency and attitudes with them.

im not trying to judge if this is a bad or good thing, i think its kinda inevitable. just like one will grow old and die. okay this is a lousy analogy but it just will happen when we meet new people from now on. so maybe thats why we always say sec sch friends are the best i guess. best as in people whom you are most comfortable to be with and people who knows you best.

from now on friends might increase in quantity but quality wise, it might just as well be stagnant (there may always be exceptions i dun want to tie a dead knot here).

i duno if i've put the idea across clearly i've just blabbered in the most organised way i could. if you duno what this is about just forget it. and im definitely not directing this entry towards anyone or any incident, just a mindmap that extended from the question about connecting with people i had in mind.



what the heck what's with this blog entry. like some sociology essay. its all OB's fault (this subject im doing this sem), and some things that i saw is happening which left me pondering over this issue.

and thats the thing about ageing and growing up. things always become more complicated. i dun wana grow up.

let's go again

its either global warming or im dealing better with the cold now, i hardly need the heater these days.

the usuals, start of semester admin stuff; confirmation of subjects, timetabling issues and textbooks. to my surprise all's smooth sailing, unlike last semester where at this time i was still trying to squeeze into certain desired slots and spending hours finding and waiting for textbook sellers. i remembered first two weeks of school last sem was a hell lot more hectic and messy. now my timetable's settled and i've gotten my texts, at least most of them. sold my text at the exact same price i bought for last sem, so economically i lost nothing thanks to textbookexchange. :)

didnt felt like school had started at all, at least till yesterday. been slacking alot and enjoying the non-busy school days. heee hope the work dont come piling in so soon i still wana read my unfinished twilight (its taking forever) watch shows go shopping and be an ultimate slacker.

tutes are starting this week and there goes the introduce yourself thing again. goodness it feels like i have to go through orientation every semester. and it didnt felt real at all as i said "im in year 2 doing commerce". year 2? since when?

and i think i wrote about the sun steaming my pores ever bigger in my last post, now its the opposite my skin's so dry it feels like orange skin. when can i ever get a perfect moisturised piece of skin? haha.

and i hate winter its affecting my mood.


REPLIES

lee si: nope not changing im 18. forever. haha.

val: seriously? when? haha.

winter hols

finally it dawned upon me that i still have a blog somewhere in here. yea as val realised, i always stop blogging when im in singapore (haha). i was thinking why and finally realise probably because i have lesser time to be alone and to be thinking and reflecting about stuff when im here. everyday's so fast paced and there seem to always have stuff to fill my mind and time with. and one month is almost over, just like that. i need to start preparing myself mentally for both school and melbourne now that the departure date is drawing so close.

hols have been great so far, other than the weather thats giving me random headaches, excessive perspiration and steaming my facial pores ever bigger. aside from that all's well. and i am still not joggingggg alamaks i am so gonna turn into an obsolete runner. haven been jogging for 1 and a half year and the record's still building. :S

i actually wana blog about some issues, but well decide its too heavy and dull. i'll just keep it to myself for now. gonna read twilight now :)

home is...

morning comes around and i cant wait to see my sunny island
in its glorious greenery whether rain or shine its still beautiful

bright lights shine on the streets at night guiding me closer to home
to a place where i know i'll be safe and warm where i belong

friends and family by my side seeing me through as i grow and learn
everyday's experience bitter sweet or sour its still wonderful



home is not feeling second class, home is not feeling intrusion

home is listening to familar accents, home is being around familiar people

home is friends and family

home is chicken rice, bah chor mee, roti prata, wonton mee

home is melting under the sun

home is Yishun Ave * Blk 6** #1*-***

home is SINGAPORE!


i love you singapore! see you in 12 hours time :)